foolish me...

Hi... all had a nice Christmas? How did u guys spent it? Going out with family? With frenz? A few years back, I and my whole big family went to KL, den when it was Christmas Eve, we all went to the mall.. My cuzunz n me went shopping for christmas presents together.. ^^ We stayed at a hotel which has a really big pond, n u can fish n go canoeing there.. Well, on Christmas, we all exchanged presents! We were so happy, n we embraced the spirit of Christmas... That really was a happy reunion... I still got the ornaments n the books my cuzuns n aunts gave.. ^^ Do u know wat my uncles gave me? Both of them gave me chocolate... == Haha.. but now we don't celebrate Christmas as we used to.. Our big big family had grown apart, n now we dun even visit each other as frequently as before... I miss them.. n also the presents, n the hugs n kisses.. on Christmas.. This Christmas, is really... lonely for me.. I juz stayed in my room the whole day feeling depressed n I don't know y.... But I actually felt like the world doesn't like me.. N i wanted to go.. Go to a place where only dead people stay... Haha.. I feel so foolish now.. I really hope the new year that is coming, I can chg myself, I want to help my family through the hardship n crisis we r facing now... May God bless me.. ----- AnN -----